I think I am

The other day I sat back to introspect and introspect really hard........

To come up with a few things I feel about myself:

1) I am an Assistant Manager with Inductis Consulting a division of EXL....rofl
2)And am a fine person if it comes to peer to peer skills and I love technology.
3) I love to crack my head and come out with pieces of programming which are algorithmically awesome.
4)I think am stupid with respect to somethings and intelligent with respect to others.
5)So here goes the list of the stupid things:

a) Am still relationship phobic after my experience of trusting one person once in life.
In short I don't trust men still but that does not mean I ll be a suspicious wife! Yeah would try to keep less expectations.

b)Am too straight forward.Not realizing what the other person feels I say so.But with this con comes a pro.I never speak bad at the back.

c)I am least expressive about my wants to people around.I either expect them to understand or try to meet my expectations myself.

d)Bad thing people very close feel bad when I don't express!!!! But the best of them have always tried to understand me and love me the way I am.

e) End of stupid things about me.I have loads of friends.Friends who really care are handful.But they are ones I can call up at 3am and cry to.Even call up at wee hours to express happiness as well.

f)I believe that man is gregarious.We need to abide by social norms.That brings in me some conventionalism despite the fact that I appreciate the openness and modernity a lot.I believe in balance.

g)For me Home is where Heart Is.No matter how much ever professional success I gain, I cannot gain it by being unhappy on the personal front at all.I have faced situations like that!!!! That made me realize what I am. So I need peace at home first all the time.......

h)I want to be perfect.I don't aim much in the material aspect of life.I know whatever little I need I ll earn it myself.So I just want to be perfect in my own little world.

i)I believe in clarity.I like people who are clear in their mind and heart.And those whose actions define their intentions.

j)I hate people who promise and leave it at that.I hate those raise hopes in the minds of some and leave them hopeless later.I believe in complete sync of action and words.I believe in honesty and I believe in truth.I know am honest to the core!

k) I feel I am that person next door who wants to live life simple.Have simple needs and desires.Tour the world,know new people, good people.....Have friends and have enough money to meet the basic comforts of life.

l)I am ambitious to an extent to being perfect in whatever I do.I don't aim for the impossible in the given situation.Too much desire brings misery is what I feel.

m)I have trusted wrong people and wanted them in different phases of my life.And I guess in situations like these I have been cared for by people I least expected them to.They are the ones I love the most now.

n)I believe in destiny but I believe in trying to shaping destiny to achieve my want.I ll always work hard towards what I want and leave the rest on the Power to decide.

o)I believe in god.Not his shape.Thats why I pray with equal humility in all the places of prayer from mandirs to masjids to gurudwarsa.

p)I love children and old people.Coz' I believe Innocence is Bliss all the time.I love their company better than complicated discussions at time.But yes,in such discussions I am usually a valued contributor too.

q)I love listening to stories and experiences and I love music which sounds good to my ears.

r)Ending with my clandestine dream.I would have loved to be in front of the camera maybe as conversationalist or a country singer! That ll come with my reincarnation I believe!


Love,
Tithi.